The Time Traveller's Wife...

It's been so long since something has inspired me to write...

Turns out, reading inspires writing...The Time Traveller's Wife...

So far, I've only read the book...I'm almost to the end...but now, I'm not sure I can watch the movie.

This is the first time I've read a book and get stuck near the ending. Normally, if it's a good book, I pick up speed towards the end. If it's a lousy book, I'll get stuck after the first few chapters.

But this time, the story just gets so sad and there doesn't seem to be any way for it to have a happy ending. I'm reluctant to continue reading because if I do, it will most probably just get worse. And that's why I don't think I'd be able to watch the movie. Not alone anyway.

It's a great book...Really creative piece of writing...but...I hate that it starts out as a love story and ends up dealing with mortality, separation, suffering. I actually find it all very disturbing. Not bad, not lousy, just disturbing...

Happy Fathers' Day!!...

My sisters and I baked a cake for Fathers' Day... Tried using fondant icing...
Didn't turn out too well...a lot harder than we thought...hehe...couldn't get it to roll out as a big sheet...so had roll out smaller squares and jigsaw it together...then we decorated the cake with chocolates and candy... :P
At least this time, I remembered to get a photo of the cake before it got cut up...hehe...

Let It Be Me...

I'm currently listening to another version of this song sung by someone else (not sure who), but this rendition by Elvis sounds pretty good too... Really nice melody, nice lyrics...Very touching, simple, sweet lyrics full of longing... These old songs truly capture the essence of what it means to long for someone...

Let It Be Me

God bless the day I found you
I want to stay around you
And so I beg you
Let it be me

Don't take this heaven from one
If you must cling to someone
Now and forever
Let it be me

Each time we meet love,
I find complete love
Without your sweet love
Tell me, what would life be?

So never leave me lonely
Tell me you love me only
And that you'll always
Let it be me

~sung by Elvis Presley~

What is the world coming to?...

A colleague of mine got robbed last night on the way from the office to the LRT station by 4 guys with knives.

To all those I care about, stay alert, stay safe. Try to avoid being out alone at night.

To those who inflict harm on others, stay alert, stay afraid.

What can I say?...

At times, I don't know what I should do.

If I push too hard, it seems like I'm angry. If I don't push at all, it seems like I don't care.

If I state the facts, I sound like I want to win an argument. If I gloss over the facts, I worry you will be fooled into a false sense of security.

It's hard playing devil's advocate. I have to tell you the things you don't want to hear. You need to think I'm pushing you, pushing you away. And yet, the more successful I am at it, the more it hurts me.

How I wish I could with one snap of my fingers create the perfect life for you, free from worries, free from pain.

I don't care that you don't realize I share your frustrations, your worries. But it hurts me when you think I don't want to know your frustrations and worries.

Because of what I care, I need you to see the facts like they are. And because of this, you think that I don't care.

What can I say? Nothing I can say in a million years can change this fact. The more I care, the less you'll think I care. Nothing can change this. Nothing, except you. I can only hope that one day, you'll realize what I've been doing. I just need you to know that everyone you know may turn against you, but you can count on me to be by your side. Of course, I realize that this may never happen. And that's why I have nothing left to say.

What's the point?...

Sometimes, I just have to ask myself. Why? What's the point?

Going through life trying to do the right thing. That sounds fine and dandy, except when doing the right thing means hurting the ones you love most. And as a result of that, in turn, you hurt yourself.

You try to do the right thing. It hurts to do so, but it hurts so much more when you actually succeed. The human mind has a complex filter. In order to shield ourselves, we tend to forget physical trauma easily. However, the same does not hold true for relationships. People normally only remember the bad things. I guess this is the same filter at work, as remembering the good things would only cause pain. Remembering the bad things, would make the present happy.

Throughout all that, the same question comes back to haunt me. Is it worth it? I think I've figured out the answer. It is worth it. Is it easy? No. Is it necessary? Yes. Does it suck? Of course. Will it ever stop sucking? I doubt it.

There are moments when I just want to throw away the whole facade. Sometimes, I can't stand the way things have turned out. But then, I see you smile, and I know I don't want to be the cause that smile goes away. So instead, I have to hope you're truly happy and stay out of your way.

Sometimes, it hurts to do the right thing. But then, I remember that that's what life's about and at least one of us is happy. And that, is the point.

So Hot...

It's been so hot these past few weeks... Feeling so lethargic... Or maybe that's just the depression setting in...

C'mon...bring on the rain!